Any writer worth his/her weight in words will tell you that the main character cannot be the same person at end of a story as he was at the beginning.
We call that character development.
Now because all stories have a beginning and an end it should be easier for us to bundle our character's personality into that time frame and express the subtle changes through the character's thoughts and actions. But for a writer it is nearly beyond the bounds of possibility to portray ourselves the same way. We are too involved to make unbiased judgements on our own thoughts, feelings and goals. Each character that we create molds us until we change again. We are completely different from one day to the next. Some days we wake up with writer's block and our whole lives fall apart because we are unable to find a purpose or a love interest or a back story for our character. We try so hard to associate with our readers that we find it almost hopeless to try to reconnect with our families come sunset.
Suffice it to say that I have no idea how to tell you who I am, what I do or how I came to be here. I honestly have no idea.
I do know that I think up stories to keep myself tethered to what passes for sanity. I love words and how they sound and what they paint. I am thirty years old and I have no idea where I'm going or how I'm going to get there. I have two men in my life, my husband and my son, who both act as anchors and balloons, depending on my need, and who adore me for who I am.
I also know, with a knowing so deep it aches, that I am enough, and okay, and broken, and wonderful, and happy, because I am a main character in Someone's Book and He loves me more than words could ever describe.
And I'm really lucky to be weird...!!
- JoinedApril 9, 2012