Words fail me to explain you how much I hate this. It’s that time of the year again: I have to study hard to pass a very difficult test hoping to get a job as a court assistant, which means I’ll be focusing on that extremely boring and stupid goal for the next 5 or 6 months. Even if I know it's a useless effort. Thousands of people will compete to get a handful of positions in my region. I’m not going to be one of the lucky ones even if I try my best: good luck tends to avoid me. But still have to do this to please my family and because, honestly, there’s no other option right now. I really need a job, or a sugar mama who likes my books, a wealthy vampire girlfriend or a winning lottery ticket… Adulting sucks.
But this time I won’t study for 9 hours every day. Last year was crazy, it took a heavy toll on my health and wasn’t worth it in the end. I’ll study 6 or 7 hours per day and will try to update my books twice a week because that’s what keeps me sane. I won’t leave you, I’ll work a little slower maybe, but updates will keep coming.
How can I feel tired already? I haven’t even started yet.