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Eliyousxx I have been following Zarry for awhile now and I do agree that Zayn broke Harry. I never saw it as Zayn being callous until I read your comments that he stands by the decisions he’s made. I love your writing and as far as Zarry Fan Fics goes, you have been my favorite reads for a long time. Sometimes I think that Zayn says a lot of the things because he is forced to due to his family beliefs and religions and also because the Hadids clan is holding things over his head. Zayn was always as solid a guy as Harry in 1D but while Harry is true to himself, I think Zayn is halted in allowing his true feelings to show from fear of what the media, his family and his fans think. I don’t think he is a strong individual but I also think deep down he is suffering for all his fears. I could be wrong but… in any event I understand your feelings and love you for standing up for what you feel is a travesty of a relationship. I think however, The Wait, stands as a good testament to what we all would love to see happen with Zarry. It shows what we all wish Zayn had the courage to do. You did not paint Harry in a bad light. Harry loves with all his heart and their is nothing wrong with that. Please reconsider revising the wait because it is the first time I feel it is more to the truth of Zarry than all the other fanfics out there. It was a masterful and I applauded Harry for finally standing up to Zayn which I am sure we all wish would happen in the hopes he finally gets closure to this relationship and moves on. By moving on, I do hope it is not Olivia as I fear she is toying with Harry and could destroy him completely. Sorry this is so long, but I couldn’t stand back and let you feel negative about any of your writing. In any event, I love you and I am a fan for life. Take care dear. Mary
E you are making me cry. It is so comforting to know someone is as affected by these 2 idiots as I am. I am being honest in saying that what you wrote in The Wait, as is, has brought a lot of closure to a lot of people including and especially me. It brought me peace in ways I can’t even explain. And whatever the real truth is with Zarry, I think a lot of us reread your book because it makes us feel better. Thanks for that. I hope you don’t mind me calling you E. I am sorry if you do. That type of nickname is one I reserve for people I treasure. Let me know if you ever feel like talking about this. I am a good listener and honest. I carry a lot of friends on my shoulders. Take care. M. P.S. I have walked away from this Zarry thing several times to keep my sanity but Harry always brings me back. I will see him in concert soon.
@MarySchram Hello, Mary! Thank you so much for reaching out and for your support. You have no idea how much being your favorite read means to me. I appreciate you a lot. ❤ About Zayn...my feelings for him are complicated and I have a lot to say, but I can't possibly do that so I just prefer to not say anything at all. But I do understand what you're saying and I appreciate you taking the time to understand my feelings as well. And about "The Wait"... Again, my dear, you're so sweet for saying all that. I'm glad you found it enjoyable esp for the parts that Harry stood up for himself bc those were the parts that I got attacked for and it's so nice to see some people enjoyed those parts the most, cuz honestly? Same. And don't worry, I do plan on revisiting it sometime later and it makes me glad that you even care. Keeps me motivated to actually get to that part bc it's gonna be one hell of a job to re-edit it. Will probably be harder than writing it in the first place but I'll do it bc I know we all wished that could have been the case between them and since they're both refusing to give that to us, then it's our only escape from the bitter truth. Again, thank you soooo much for taking the time to try and make the negative feelings go away. Your kindness means the world to me! ❤ Take care, love!
2) but also, so many of you know me personally, and now I just feel bad about even writing about Zarry with their reality in the first place. Pure fiction is what my other book is about (RNR), and I feel comfortable with sharing that bc I'm only using their names and nothing more than that, which wasn't the case with the other books. I understand if you don't wanna read my work anymore or if you wanna curse me for taking down "The wait" bc I know some of u loved it. I feel bad, too. I didn't enjoy taking down my first work which had reached 20K views and had faced so much love from you guys (especially lately that AD showed SO MUCH kindness to me and had added it to her reading list). I assure you that I didn't relish it. It was pretty hard for me, too. Which is why I may consider re-editing and publishing a whole new ass version sometime later, but not anytime soon bc I have to study hard. (And I'm only publishing RNR bc it's already done. I'm just doing some minor edits before publishing new chapters) With all that being said, I hope you stick around for my new book bc I actually like what I've written this time, especially the second half of it bc I feel like my writing has become more skillful (lol I'm kidding) and it may teach someone something bc it'll portray a crisis. So many of the little things that will be mentioned in that story will come from my own experiences and my loved ones, so that will probably make it feel more touchable for the reader. And on the other hand, and as I've already said, I really understand if you won't be interested in following my work bc I get that I may have broken some hearts here. (Which I'll try to fix, but I have to feel comfortable with how I feel first to be able to do that). Again, I'm sorry. Okay, time to go and cry.
@Eliyousxx thank you very much ! When I woke up this morning I was geared to finish the book and then it was just not there! But after your response I feel comforted.... And I can sleep now.... Looking forward to your other works and the edited version of the wait! Cause like I said and will say again you are a beautiful writer!! As for Zarry! If it's meant to be it will be.... If it's not then it won't. Let's just hope they both find happiness and love where ever life takes them.
@Eliyousxx I get you. I hope you let go of them soon. I think there's more to the things they do than meets the eye. Whatever they show or tell the public is usually not what they really mean. Esp Zayn. Just let go. Love them without getting too attached.
@Eliyousxx you're kind and precious yourself, I really appreciate you as a writer and more as a person. yeah, I read your answers to the other messages and I agree with you. With this repeated verses about how Zayn choose this life and knowingly hurt Harry makes me upset, so lately I'm ignoring them as much as I can do. I'm looking forward to updates and new stories from you. Stay safe! ❤️❤️
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1) I don't know to say this but here we go...I don't expect you to get why I did what I did, cuz it may sound dumb to you, but I unpublished my two recent books. It wasn't because I felt insecure about my writing (which I did but I still didn't unpublish it bc of that reason, only because so many of you were soooo kind to it and would read it over and over again and I don't even know how to thank you for that.) But I unpunished them (esp The Wait) because I don't feel the same. I feel betrayed, which I know is stupid but that's just how I feel and nobody can really change that. Please don't expect me to continue to clown around when the man himself says he chose the way he's living. Destroying someone's heart and fucking up their mental health *on purpose* is a whole new level of low that I can't deal with, at least not anytime soon. And EVEN if you erase the Harry factor, it's still such a shitty act to bring an innocent baby to this world when you're in the most obvious PR-driven relationship in history (literally) and especially with a woman you haven't even acknowledged her existence for YEARS. And it's not like I expected what I had written to be true (I wrote it for the exact opposite reason. I needed an escape and that escape became some of yours as well and I'm so sorry that it doesn't exist anymore) but I became truly frustrated with what I had written bc it's hard to go and look back at them and see that Zayn did the EXACT opposite (loving the way he's living). And I know it was fiction, which is why I understand that you may not comprehend where I'm coming from (and some of you may feel the need to attack me which is fine. It's nothing you haven't done already and just bc I don't come here and brag about getting my mental health fucked in my DMs doesn't mean it's not happening. I just don't like to talk about it bc it's ridiculous that it's even happening with such a small platform that I have, and just because you *feel* I had victimized Harry)
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@Mozarrope And about Harry - I'm not entirely sure if you know him that well or not, but let's say that you do enough to feel confident when you're expressing your opinion about him. First of all, Harry wasn't in a relationship after fine line for more than a year. He has also never dated anyone for more than a year. He doesn't go and buy rings for his female parents and make headlines about it. He doesn't get tattoos of them even tho it's so fucking weird and people question him all the time about that. He doesn't get his female partners pregnant. What he does tho, is changing the lyrics almost every night at his shows. If you do understand the need for bearding and it's okay for Zayn to do it in your opinion, then how is it a problem when Harry does it? Especially when he's openly said that he's hoping that someday he could be open and he's holding back (which is obv to protect Zayn bc he doesn't want to come out). If you ask me, I think the only reason he even does bearding in the first place is to protect the man he once loved. And if by any chance I'm completely wrong, then it's still so weird to expect him to sit around and not be in a relationship at all. I think I haven't wholly gotten what you mean, and I'm sorry if I've mistaken anything you've said, but I just can't agree that Harry isn't ready. Not for a second bc, he had done wayyyyyy too many things to show that he is and has been ready for a long time. Anyways I appreciate you reaching out. Tnx for recognizing my right with my work again. ❤
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@Mozarrope Hello. Thanks for realizing my right to do whatever I want with my work. I know that but I also needed to try and explain my view for the great people who spent hours and hours reading that book. About the other parts tho, I have to disagree with you. I do realize the need for bearding and I'm familiar with the matter. And either I approve of it or not, which I do under certain circumstances, it doesn't matter cuz that's just my opinion. And I also get that Zayn couldn't have had a baby with Harry, which is the part that makes what he did more fucked up. He can do whatever he wants and my viewpoint doesn't matter in the least, but I, personally, don't think that if he truly loved Harry then he couldn't have done the things that he did. Not after seeing and living with Harry throughout his breakdown over a stupid engagement. And when you say Zayn has the right to have a baby, then that's true as well but homosexual people have babies all the time. I wasn't exactly expecting him to have that experience with Harry, which was something I even mentioned in the book, but what Zayn needs to understand is that he can't have the best of both worlds. Not at once. If I, for instance, fall in love with a girl, then I have to understand that either I choose to have a baby with her with different options that exist, or if I don't wanna do that and I still wanna have a baby, then I can't *claim* that I love her anymore. It's either this or that, and if Zayn can't accept that, then good luck to him.
First you're completely free to unpublish or change anything in your writing if ypi don't feel comfortable for any reason ! But you need to look up for PR & homo history in this undustry &you'll understand that what he did was ok (look up ricky martin fot instance) ! Acccidently or not he has the right to want &have a baby regardless of who he love (he can't have one with H anyway) &it's not like h is more ready because he keep going from 1 hetero relation to another even after opening up in the album ! They l ow what they are doing or at least why ... they'll do it when they're reasy &maybe never & that's ok too