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Noé Archiviste *moans*

*checks notifications* 
          *I have 897 of them* 
          *screams* 
          
          I have returned after a month of death :.> 
          
          The situation is not better. If anything, it's worse. He hasn't responded since last Friday night, and I have no clue where he is or what he's doing. Does international texting cost extra? He might already be in France and I wouldn't know at all, he never did say when he's going there, just that he'd be gone for 2 years. Well, I left a few messages (nothing too crazy, just asking if he has stuffed animals, some of my siblings' drawings, and a couple memes) and a voicemail last night ("checking in to make sure you're not dead"), so I think I've done enough. Now it's time to play the waiting game, and I highkey hate waiting games. 
          
          I may have gotten my other friend who's about to be a Senior invested in this too. In fact, he's the one who sent me the crush's Sophomore portrait (his brother is 3 years older than him, which is such a huge coincidence but whatever). 
          
          Anyways enough about me, how the hell are y'all doing? It's been just over a month and I'm about to disappear again because my parents are taking us on a road trip to Albuquerque (kill me now pls).

Alright I'm back for a bit 
          
          So first he replied "First, your birds are LOUD!" (I have 12, 7 in the main living space), then basically said "I kinda already knew." I mean, it was hella obvious so. Then I asked my other friend for advice and he told me to ask how my crush felt about me. To that, he responded he thinks I'm "cool and fun to talk to," but that he also hoped I realized "against popular consent, I am a Senior" with only 2 days left of school. This all happened last Friday, so he graduates today (｡･∀･)ﾉﾞ 
          
          I will not lie, every time I have a crush, I tend to get all obsessive over them. It's not healthy, but it's quite addicting. One problem with this, he's going on a cruise 2 days after graduation, and once he gets back from that, he's going on a senior trip with his friends. Idk when he gets back from that trip or when he'll leave, but then he's going to France for 2 years "preaching the gospel" or something. Meanwhile my rising Junior ass will be stuck in a classroom or 7, dealing with these fucking assholes at my school. 
          
          So yeah, that's basically the whole situation. I did send him a message the day after I confessed asking if we could still be friends, to which he replied within ONE MINUTE saying "Oh yeah totally!" This guy sends such mixed signals, this ain't even funny anymore ToT 
          
          Well, if there's any advice, I will gladly listen, because my ass is scared that if I keep messaging him he'll grow tired of me, or that I'll be bothering him because he has all his other friends. I don't want to force him to talk to me, but I will probably miss his voice and face and etc. (I was basically gonna list all the cliched stuff like smile and whatever, but I think y'all get the point). Plus, his phone's usually on silent, so even if I called he probably wouldn't pick up. 
          
          Okay, NOW I'm actually done.

GUYS IM SORRY IVE BEEN DEAD BUT IGNORE THAT BECAUSE I SENT A VOICE MESSAGE TO MY CRUSH AND IM FREAKING OUT

Random Vietnamese angst that kinda describes my life: 
          
          ồ, nhìn cô ấy kìa. cô ấy rất xinh đẹp và thông minh, có lẽ cô ấy nghĩ rằng cô ấy hơn những người khác.
          
          nhưng trên thực tế, cô ấy chỉ muốn ai đó chấp nhận mình. cô ấy muốn ai đó yêu cô ấy vì con người thật của cô ấy. một người chấp nhận những sai sót của cô ấy và khiến cô ấy cảm thấy an toàn. nhưng người cô ấy muốn lại nằm ngoài tầm với. ra khỏi giải đấu của cô ấy. cô ấy không muốn để anh ấy đi, nhưng chỉ có rất nhiều điều mà một cô gái có thể làm.
          
          vì vậy tôi để anh ta đi.

Guess who came back from the dead :> 
          
          Guys I have a crush on a senior and genuinely think I'm scaring him off- (I'm a sophomore for reference) I also have all of these drawings of him, what do I do T^T 
          
          PLUS HES WHITE, I know once I said "No way I'll date someone who's white" YET HERE I AM, CRUSHING ON A WHITE GUY who LITERALLY couldn't talk to me because he was in a SCRIPTURE STUDY CLASS at 8 SOMETHING PM. WHAT?!?

Guess who got sick somehow and their throat is hella dry and they know for sure they're missing something in AP Bio today :')

UPDATE: The prologue has been posted to my story. I'm still working on it, but the whole thing is 16 1/2 pages in my journal so far. 
          
          Please go read it, I'm about to publish the next two parts of the story.

Not me working on a story that I dropped since January