How it all began

I recently went through a breakup about 3 months ago with this guy , for privacy I will call J, I swear I was in love with him, still kinda am, but I'm not allowed to have him anymore due to some friends getting mad at me for being with him, cause he. put me through so much emotional distress, which you can read later, so , I'll just stop talking and LET THE STORY COMMENCE !