I wonder

A story, of someone who has decided to end it all, but can make the choice to go back

Maybe it's weird, but I wonder how it feels to be dead. I wonder what it would feel like to jump off a building and get smashed the minute you hit the ground. I wonder how it feels to cut so deep this time that it won't stop bleeding anymore.

I wonder how it feels to be missed.. I don't think people will actually mis me. Maybe my parents, but maybe once I'm gone and they've come past their grieve, they realize they're better off now. Cause I was just a bother to begin with. I'm not the ideal daughter. Not at all.