My life feels like a test I didn't study for.

Your always haunted by the idea that you're wasting your life. That there was never a purpose? Some people feel that even more and it ends up controlling their lives. That was how I felt, I thought that there wouldn't be a difference if I was in this world or not. Until Luke came along and showed me there are more important things in life then just mourning over a lost mother. That it was my choice to dress up for the party or not.