I'm done...

I am 18 yrs old...i tried ending my life countless times...I then stood up over a bigger death of the underground...till I fallen. I survived but...I never wanted this...I always hated every little thing that ever happen to me...so I always say, "I can't do this..." But a deep voice always tell's me, "you can...but you gotta hold on..." I can't believe anymore...i just can't stand being alive...."I'm nothing important..." It keeps dragging onto me everytime..."please keep holding on..."