Where it all began

I have eventually grown to know what had happened to me whilst a little girl, how it all began, and how it got to this day.
So destrote and tromented by what i had experienced through out the years, questioning myself of how it could be all my fault? Or is it something i just had fallen in to,like some sort of trap?. From punishments to beatings, tears to fear, fear from your own parents, from ever crossing their minds wondering what will happen from day to day, praying that youll even live to see another day.