i wanna die (my suicidal diary entries )

I wanna die. I want to end the pain. I wanna tell someone but i cant i just wanna die. Slit my wrist , cut my throat. I wanna cut my self but what if someone sees ?  i want to be alone. A quite place. Be myself . Have friends . Talk. all i do is fight with my family . If i argue with my mom . My brother and sisters will start to argue. Im called hateful, bitch, whore, slut, ect. Cant they see i just wanna die? plz im scared i dont wanna die but if i die itll end the pain