*What the hell is this?*

Dear you,
They all love me. But none of them love me. They are all my friends, but none of them are my friends. I'm the goody two shoes.But I'm also not. I'm crying, but I'm also not. I'm okay, but I'm also not. I'm writing to you, but I don't know why. You'll not tell anybody, but you'll also tell everybody. You're my secret, but you're also not.
I'm Lily, but I'm also not.