Doors slowly closing (manic st preachers)

A view of what richey may have seen and felt watching the manics grow after he left, him deciding to go to one of their gigs. What his life may be like now, what he could be doing now, how he has changed. (From Richey's view point)
* a note this will include references to his past self harm, anorexia, suicidal thoughts, alcoholism and his struggles with depression. All are references to his past which fans will already know.*