Frustraing milkshake

This is about a girl named Bella, she has always been something that she is not, but its not like if she is doing it on purpose she has noticed that her friends are telling her who she has to be but not in words in action she writes her feelings in her notebook to put out her feelings of everything that is around her so they won't be locked up inside her but it's not enough she feels like she is going to explode but out of no were she thinks she has met her love of her live when she thought everything was perfect until something she has done will change her life forever