chapter one

i sit down on my bed and grab my head, why can't they never shut up. why do they keep saying such horrible things to me.. my mom has left the room room with one of her many worried faces. god, i pray to you, i beg you, i just want to be normal, why did you give me these voices, i know suicide is a sin but i am going to get killed by them. i kneel down on the ground. my hands together, my elbows resting on the edge of the bed and my head against my hands. god, if you are listen, make them go away. i beg you.