How and when it started

This is what I miss and myself before it all started. Yay.. In this I will be very deep with what has happened in my life. And no I haven't told it like this to anybody so this is my first time doing this so please no hate. I wanna help people with the same pain that I'm going through right now. I wanna be a therapist after college and help anyone I can. And I hope that this will help other people and they will do the same thing that I've done tonight. My whole purpose for this was to help people and show them that scuicide will NEVER help ANYONE.