Abusive boyfriend

I moved 1500 miles away from my old home in California on Greene road to Georgia Atlantic .but me and my ex-boyfriend had a fight before I left that's why he is my ex-boyfriend and his name was will.and I never like him because he used to abuse me rape me and even force me to do so many things that make me want to throw up. And I feel like I'm drowning and seeing every one els full of life and breathing and me drowning and want to see what breathing is like but I can't ,because I'm drowning but I'm trying to breath.and one day the beatings got worse instead of him hitting me and punching me like a punching bag,he wipes me now with his belt and I whould have fresh brushes and fresh scares I cut into my skin after he beats me .that the only way I can let the pain leave but it will always come back.but the one day my future will change