Chapter 1

Once again I found myself on the bathroom floor crying my eyes out, shaking, staring at that blade. As the evil thoughts of what my Father just did... Vividly I see him punching her multiple times and her falling to the floor crying. My Father yelling "YOU'RE SUCH A PATHETIC BITCH YOU KNOW THAT!!" ... I start crying even harder, and I reach for the blade for the third time in a row this week. I cut deeper, and I cut more remembering what people are always telling me in school.. "You're so fat Julie!" "You're stupid" "You're dumb" "You're worthless little cunt." ... Im cut off by a pounding at the door. In a panic I yell, "IM GONNA TAKE A SHOWER!" I quickly turn the water on and clean up the mess. After my shower I put bandaids on my cuts. I put some sweats and a long sleeve on and walk to my room. I fall asleep crying. Before you read this let me introduce myself: Hi my name is Julie Arber. I am a 18 year old senior. My Father is a meth user, my mother stays home. I've self-harmed since I was 9 years old. I had an eating disorder from the age of 13. The rest of me you will learn. A/N: ***THE FOLLOWING STORY IS A DEMI LOVATO FAN-FICTION. DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE IN ANY WAY HOMOPHOBIC. THIS ALSO CONTAINS SOME SEXUAL CONTENT AS WELL AS MILD PROFANITY. Some of the ideas in this story may be disturbing. These include self-harm, purging, and bullying. Some of the situations in here are related to real-life events and are in no way meant to offend anybody.***