My brother just died, now im falling for his bestfriend?

Im Connie, Martin was my bestfriend, my brother and the only person in my family who actually cared about me. Everyone loved him, he was just a very likeable person. A couple of months ago Martin got killed in a car crash on my 16th birthday. Ever since then I blame myself.

His death caused everyone pain and that's when I fell for Martin's bestfriend Jason.