Jesus Paradox

I have had experiences with God throughout most of my life. This doesn't make me any different than anyone else though. It also didn't bring an ease to flow through my life either. But the best part is that because I'm human, I didn't want to do things that my heart knew that I should. This brought me into a twirling vortex of suffering, paranoia, and complicated experiences with realm of spirituality that I had to from that moment on follow my heart no matter the challenges. I continued to fall. I also continued to get up!