Torn RocxRay

My phone rang the tears dripped out from my dark shaded brown eyes. I clutched my heart taking another gulp of my beer. I haven't showered for weeks, my braids are all fucked up, little hairs sticking out of the braid. I smell horrible. I picked the phone up putting it to my ear.
"Ray..." I sighed ever since the break up with roc, Carmen's always trying to make me talk about my "feeling" Saying everything good but I never smile.
What is ray to do if the love of his life, roc left him for the dude he's been cheating on ray with this whole time?