From then until now(A Princeton love story)

sometimes I wish I could lay Down and die. life isn't how I pictured it to be. I have no friends or family. the once person I love and trust dosent really understand where I comig from at times. sometimes I wish that he could love me, but I'm to afraid to tell him because I don't know how he will react......I just want to know does he love me the way I love him?......how will he react? I just wanna know