Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

Some people get to a point where they can no longer feel the pain caused by memories of their past. They just get used to it.
Every night I pray to become one of those people. To be able to remember without tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat. I want to be capable to talk about my past, to embrace it and look into the future without any fear.
Love is the answer, that's what they say...