Prologue

Louis Tomlinson keeps three secrets--three that change him.

First, Louis Tomlinson isn't like the other boys. He's known since secondary school; but it took him a long time to come to terms with it. Louis' sexuality is one of the hardest things he's had to deal with, and he has to deal with it alone. He knows how foolish it would be to tell anyone else--people can be so judgmental.

Secondly, Louis Tomlinson is depressed. For him, depression is no longer a condition, it's a state of being. Happiness doesn't exist in his life--he struggles just to get out of bed day to day. Louis hates himself, he hates his sexuality, and most of all, he hates his life. He slowly begins to understand what it means to be truly alone.

His third secret is comes in the form of his creamy-skinned, curly-haired Cheshire flat neighbour. Everything from his rosy cheeks to his mossy-green eyes have Louis going mad with longing. He's never even exchanged a word with him, but he knows that he's addicted to this boy. He is Louis's drug, and he can't get enough of him. He's Louis's dirty, dark little secret that he has to hide because he's scared of being left alone yet again.

But they say that holding things in can destroy a person from the inside out.

And these secrets are breaking Louis Tomlinson.