Description
This is the raw, unfiltered story of walking the tightrope between panic and control, calm and chaos. It's about living inside a body that betrays you with every tremor, every heartbeat, every sharp pinch that reminds you you're still here-but not safe. It's about panic attacks that hit without warning, blackouts that steal memory and control, and anxiety that turns ordinary spaces into impossible landscapes. I've learned the difference between being too calm and too wired, how the wrong substance, the wrong mood, the wrong rhythm can tip me into chaos. This is a story of survival-through music, movement, breath, and the tiniest sparks of balance. It's about being an empath, feeling too much, and learning to stay tethered while the world spins around me. Here, I share what it feels like to live with panic, blackouts, depression, anxiety, and trauma, without sugarcoating. The tremors in my hands, the pounding in my chest, the fog in my mind-these are my reality, my truth, my fight every day.
Between Too Calm and Too Wired
