Not Even This

Set after Shinwell's death and the memorial service that Sherlock didn't attend. Something's wrong with him, he can feel it, and he feels his mind begin to unravel. Watson is hurt, Sherlock is too. The rift is growing bigger between them. Can they start to heal?
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Scene set in the season 5 finale 5x24 Hurt Me, Hurt You. After their argument and Watson goes upstairs, Sherlock is left alone. He's confused, he knows something's wrong inside of him, and now he's disappointed and hurt the only person he wanted to keep close. Guilt, shame and fear eat at him.