001 / before and after

Look, if the shoe fits, wear it. There's a small part of you that's too much a coward to come face-to-face with the people you've been ogling on a screen for a few years.

Also-if you let yourself get your hopes up, that there might be a hysterically joyous upside to dying-then you might be horribly let down when they aren't there.

• originally i published on ao3, but i would like to publish it here as well! this is an ongoing fic with sporadic updates!