Why are you only a Jerk to me?

My name is Heather, I am Wesley and Keaton Stromberg cousin. I have lived with them since I was two years young since my mother passed away. Wesley and Keaton are in a band with a couple of friends. One of them known as Drew Chadwick. Or the way the world see's him so inspiring and life changing. But to me he is the jerk that I grew up with that would be pick on me to make Wesley mad. And to this day he is still a jerk to me. But not to anyone else. Oh and want to know the worst part? I like Drew Chadwick. But I also hate him. But I will NEVER admit it.