Willing to talk to you

Wondering why and how it was so possible for me to express my true feeling in a single poem which I wrote within a short time of a minute at least or five minutes max but all made sense, reflecting on what I had to go through, especially falling for someone and realizing that I indeed started to have feelings for that one person. If I didn't, I wouldn't have experienced what it truly feels like. If I didn't, I wouldn't have found out about my own self, my own feelings, my own worth and my own identity from within; the part which no one can see from the outside but would doubt. This changed me completely, mentally and physically. While many love stories hopefully have a happy ending, mine still doesn't have an ending which is still complicated. Regret and mistakes, yeah... I somehow went through it all but although it was the pain I had to go through mostly in silence, I still survived. No one knew how I felt and what kind of journey studying abroad was like for me. It was just a camouflage that many saw and almost no one but God knew what it was for me standing on two trembling legs and two cold feet longing for warmth. Hoping for another day where I can start over, and start fresh. Although forgetting about the past might be difficult, I still know how to move forward and trying to put a smile on my face. My words within might mostly reflect on the devastating burning coal I had to walk on leaving invisible marks of pain behind, but that doesn't mean I am not okay. Let what already happened aside and now time to look forward hoping for a chance; a chance where a new chapter opens with true hope for a true smile where feelings can be expressed freely rather than written words.