The Early Years

A closeted, frustrated transgender lady whose lifelong dream is transition from boring boy in male clothing into a beautiful fully transitioned lady with friends, female friends that are supportive and actively assist with this desired transition. I have felt and desired to be a female girl and then lady since age 7. I started dressing in my sister's panties which I stole from her underwear drawer. I would wear them to bed to sleep in and then later to wear under my boy jeans, cargo pants, etc. My Mother found my stash, confronted me, and after our discussion, realizing that this was not a phase I was going through helped me my taking me shopping for my own panties, stockings, and bras. When I disclosed to my cousin my desire and need to be a girl, she is supportive and actively assist me, with my feminization and sexual experience as a closeted transgendered female. Then other female and transgendered friends assisted me through the years. Then a crisis would happen, I would freak out and then purge everything. This would last a few months, and then I would again start purchasing a new wardrobe for Casey, as Casey's persona demanded to be allowed to express her femininity, after the first purge and each time her voice gets louder along with her need for express her femininity. I was married for 20 years, in our 19th year, she found my stash, I told her everything about Casey, the clothing and my needs to express Casey's personality. She said she could not accept Casey, we separated. With all the purges and restocking of Casey's feminine clothing, I could have paid for most of the surgeries I will need to complete this transition. I Pray to God, each day to wake up, fully transformed into the mature young lady I hunger to be, who prefers the company of other transgendered ladies like herself, other bisexual cis-females into transitioning transgender women or lesbians. Please leave your thoughts and comments on the chapters as I desire your feedback.