What happened April 3

Yall don't know who I am and wanna keep it that way. This is my way to vent about my feelings and hopefully yall can give me advice on it all. I don't have a therapist, so I'ma be using this as it. I don't really know how to handle my feelings any other way. I will warn you this book might mention about suicidal thoughts, urges, embarrassing ass storys, intrusive and impulsive thoughts, gore details, every trigger you can think of and probably even more so beware. I just wanna get better.