It's like I'm addicted to it...

Depression.

(Please, don't ever think of suicide. You matter so much to me, even if you can't believe it. Even a STRANGER who's in need is important to me. No life deserves to be taken. Talk to me if ever needed. You are loved, trust me. I know it may be hard at times, but keep your head up. Everything gets better and you will be okay, I promise. Everyone has a story and I'm more than willing to listen and help. Reach out. You can even speak anonymously, that's okay. I'm here to help and comfort whatever you need. Please, just don't ever consider ending your life. I love you.)