'before the start '

I as a person feal so lost and drowned in everything every where ,
And
" People say you just think too much while I don't , I don't think close to what's happening to me but it still goes on ..."
The therapist I go to they just seem like they are studying me , instead of acknowledging what's wrong with me , they say I have some kind of past trauma but I DON'T, and I still don't know why like why I feal like this...