NOT a chapter

With tears in my eyes and a heart on the verge of breaking, I just had to ask her. I knew I'd regret it later but the only thing on my mind was the one thing I thought I'd never have to doubt.
"I thought you loved me?"
"Ruth just stop, let it go."
"Let it go? You think I could just let it go, Alex? After everything we been through-"
"I could never love you Ruth! You are not lovable, that's why...I've never loved you.