back into time?

you are extremely beautiful, and a world class model including sexy Victoria's secret. yet you are an otaku, when you were younger( you are currently 18 and so are the guys in black butler and Bassy and Claude are like 20) you watched black butler and got so obsessed you did something stupid..... you were 15 and got drunk with a friend and started playing with that kind of stuff thinking it was fake, next thing you know you woke up the next morning with a butler. you had no parents because they were very very abusive and one day when you were 10 you poisoned them and they died. you always were a very evil person. anyways, something happened.......