when I die

well in my first period i was listening to Real man by Mitski and i was feeling Hella depressed and so like I started thinking of Blue Raspberry Vape Clouds by ratwyfe ratwyfe ratwyfe. so like the cover of it is a bunch of mushrooms with her leaning in one and i just thought of this and i made myself Hella depressed and i thought bro this would be a good place to be when i die. so now i want to die, i don't need help and i'm not going to commit suicide i mean it btw the cover is from howls moving castle