baby fat

I have always been fat, and have always found myself to be the butt of every joke. What could be funnier than a fat girl? Fat girl falling. Fat girl sitting. Fat girl wearing clothes. Fat girl living. In elementary school, it's like everyone hated me and thought everything I did was disgusting and hilarious. Everyday, for 6 god awful years, I was told that I was ugly, fat, shrek, etc. The words would never end on describing how ugly I was. In 8th grade I moved, I was happy. Maybe I wouldn't be the clown that everyone would laugh at, maybe I would get friends, maybe I could just be a normal person for the first time. And thats what happened. I actually got friends and got a boyfriend. His name is Ralph, he is perfect in every single way. He is Hispanic and has a big mouth, the world's biggest smile. I love being around him and my friends, but one of them makes me sad. They all do, but she is the worst. Everyone knows her as a model, and I'm her funny sidekick, actually everyone's but mainly hers. She always gets in drama and I'm always here to make her happy and laugh, it's not the worst thing, but why can't I be considered pretty too? I thought that because I got friends and am in a relationship that I would finally be considered "beautiful". I realized that I'm not skinny like her. I don't have beauty. I'm still ugly. I wish I looked like her, curly hair, tan skin, long legs, flat stomach. I want to be like her. I want to be like Daisy.