[I] Diffidence

Diffidence, after trying so many times, you end up with lacking confidence in yourself, you end up doubting yourself, you feel worthless and you feel hopeless about everything around you. You believe in nothing. You've fully blended into a world of self-doubt and self-hate. It separates you from the real world.

Desire, where there is diffidence you end up with desire. You want to be loved, you want to be someone's special person. You want to have special moments with a lover. But even when your desire is big, your diffidence is bigger. Is there an escape? Is there hope? Or are you trapped forever within your doubtful mindset?

This story is meant to be read from a male POV.

7.12.22