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'BARIR AHIL ABDULLAH' This is what umma exaggerated when I asked her about my fiance's name! 'subhanallah! I'm going to be nikahified within hand countable hours' I startled looking at the clock hanging on the right wall; 6pm! I'm waiting for magrib adhan having ablution done. My dark maroon wedding lehenga is hanging near my dressing table, dozens of empty mehandi cones over a small basket; I looked at my hands which turned out to be pretty with darker stains, I'm thankful for my bestfriends who have perfectly designed both hands and foot with Henna. Aah I felt good as I inhaled it's essence. Well this marriage is not what I expected to happen this early, I had thought to think about marriage after 2 years but it's happening now and I'm not sure if I'm ready! I still can't makeout how I said yes to this proposal! I was always feared of marriage- for it is a life-long commitment and I don't know how I'll be able to cope with it; what if he is not of my type? what if he don't like how I'm? what if he expect me to change according to him? what if I feel suffocated? what if I have to live under his commands? what if I lose my peace of mind? what if he deny to be my best friend? what if he don't support me? what if... Allah!🥺 I'm always scared about these things but I trust my Allah's plan- for he is the best of planners- for he loves his slaves more than anyone- for he treats everyone equally- for he is the only one whom I can rely upon at any point. so I have agreed for this proposal that means It's my right time to get married? or it's a trap? Will I end up living my happy life? or sink in the pool of grief and sorrow? will I be thankful for agreeing to him? or regret my decision every second? Will I be heard and seen? or pushed to dark with ignorance?
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