DIL:Chapter 1

I want to forget everything but it seems so difficult. I want to prove myself that I am better off without him but what would I do if I ever see him again?

What if...

What if his not the same person I used to know? Do I feel the same way again or I'll be drowning taking everything with me?

Does he even remember me?
Past is past.
I should focus on my present and make action of my future.

That's all I have to do before drowning.