It has to be Perfect*

She's surrounded by people but she feels alone
She could be joking and laughing with friends but feel sad
She's the eldest
She's the only daughter
She has to do well in school
She has to be a good girl
A good friend
A good daughter
A good student
A good person
She doesn't understand why she has put these unrealistic expectations on herself but she has them and has to live up to them
She's nervous
She doesn't know what to do
She's always waiting
Wondering
Nervous
Scared
Confused
But now new things are happening
She's started needing things but she doesn't know why
Why
She needs attention
But not the attention most would think
She doesn't care if it's bad
She just wants it