how do you describe someone's beauty?

I started this poem collection in 2018. I just recently rediscovered what I had wrote and wanted to continue with it. I honestly have no idea how I was able to describe what I'm feeling now without going through anything comparable to what I had experienced these last few years. I feel weak to admit how broken I've become, but poetry has become an outlet for me to find some way to express my emotions without having to go to others about it. I don't know if I'm fine, but who really is anyway?
Some poems are lowercase, which is intended.
TW:
sh
"abusive" language