I Never Shoot To Miss

(New series, I know I say this for every book, but I don't get enough time on my hands, but for now, enjoy!!)
You left MI6 3 years ago and finally returned to being a 00 agent after your life turns out to go downhill.
You and Bond have to do a mission together, but you both get kidnapped and Bond finds out something about you which ruins everything.
You thought your lover died so you grieved, but it turns out he didn't and he feels the need to apologise.
Bond meets an enemy, but you meet a lover.