It is the Beginning, a new one

When I said that I wanted to be different, of all the ways possible I didn't want it to be this way.
I just feel like I am being played by my own words and I am being betrayed by myself and my mind, it is also not much of a help.
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"You know, what makes the night sky even more beautiful, because our loved ones are there. Every day people lose someone they cherish and they go up there and join other stars. This is why they are so beautiful".