Description
Ryan Ross was depressed after he left Panic! At The Disco. He had gone -from the happy, cheerful guy he was- very quiet and dark. Why he left Panic!, he doesn't even know himself. He was not thinking straight the last months, because he was crushing on his best friend. Being with him only made it worse, it made him feel like he could never have him, which was true in Ryan's mind. He missed him, he missed him loads. he missed him teasing Ryan on stage, he missed his voice. His touch, his cuddles, and calming words whenever he needed them... Ryan didn't even think about caring for himself anymore; he lost weight, he rarely drank something, and he just couldn't fall asleep. He started to write his feelings out in poems, and poems turned into songs. It was like therapy to him. He wrote, and wrote, until he came up with this song, and he felt so comfortable with it, he decided to make a record of it. He got loved again, ever since he left Panic, he felt like he was forgotten, and now all the attention is back. But he doesn't feel that adored. Hell, he feels lonely. He feels like nobody cares... But he isn't the only one that feels that way... WARNING: -Ryan is incredibly depressed at this point, so this may be triggering. -There will be cussing -Everyone has disorders in this fic. -Have a good time reading this :3 -If I triggered you, I am really sorry, please let me know if I did and I will apologize.
Where I Belong // Ryan Ross
