If only ..

"I feel so proud of him for being happy even after everything that he goes through. But I hate the days when he cries. Whenever his family arranges meetups, I always pray for those guys to reject him. I feel happy whenever those guys reject him. Such a shitty person I am. But I feel like someone pierces my heart whenever I see my Chibi crying."

*My Chibi? If only I would have been able to call him that.*