Never Ending curse

I'm alone here sitting on a broken bench with broken heat or to be specific with dead heart which is crushed brutally that I wonder how the hell it still beats.I have a huge family whom I love with my whole heart and with every thing I have but for them I am non existent or more like a never ending curse whom they brought on themselves.
But am I a curse or I am cursed to live this pathetic cruel life with my heart which once has lots of love but now it is dead like a stone.
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