In Memory Of

I sat in my white grossing gown, with the same pattern you would expect from a 90's Kellogg's commercial, waiting for the doctor. You would think after years of countless tests, procedures, and waiting in these once white walled hospital rooms stained by years of illness and deaths , I wouldn't feel the agonising ,gut wrenching pit in the bottom of my stomach due to the horrific wait that the doctors have put me through the last few years. But I do and to be honest the fear of dying puts most people to the same feeling, even me. Also most wouldn't consider teenagers as the poster child for death, but then there's me.