Autor's note

Why did this man have to rape me. NEVER in my life, did I play with the heart of other people. I was never the girl, who slept around. I wanted to find my Mr Perfect to build up my life with him. I only ever wanted one thing in my life that was true love. Couldn't I even have this happiness in my life?? I want my old life back! I want my virginity back. I waited my whole life. Even through all my friends lost their virginity in high school, and laugh at my imagination to find Mr Perfect, BUT I waited! I waited. Why god, why me?? Especially then when I thought that I found him. That was the first time that I felt like this. Jasmine and her best friend Isabelle are visiting the army in Switzerland with the school. There Jasmine meets the soldier Rafael the first time, but after that first meeting they can't see each other again. Because they have no contact number and on the way home, someone kidnaps Jasmine, rapes her and lets her unconscious in the forest. When she's found, she's been brought to a hospital. Fortunately she cant remember anything about the rape and hasnt any nightmares. But the asshole who raped her, lets her a gift for her whole life...