chapter one

I savor the kiss. I savor the moment. I savor the way Spencer tries to get his hands on my back. I know that life is changing for a while. My pessimism is rearing its ugly head but I can't stop it. And whether I'm the only pessimist here or nobody else is confessing what they're thinking, I'm the only one acting on it, it seems. I kiss Spencer with everything I have because as soon as he's here, he's gone.

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I will do a trigger warning before the chapters that need it but here are some warnings that occur throughout: blood, guns, panic attacks, a lot of angst, some smut, normal criminal minds stuff