Klutzy mess

TW: mentions abuse, depression and other things that could be triggering to some people. Slurs are used in regards to gay people, so keep that in mind.
Lams fanfic: John is a Starbucks barista who meets Alex and falls in love with him, but struggles to accept himself. Between years of bullying and abuse, John is sceptical and believes no one will ever love him
This is my first big writing piece, so please be nice!

*this may not fit in with canon or other fanfics. These characters are what I need right now, so for reference in both fics, John is my mental state, Laff is who I wish I were, and Herc is me as a personality.